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Hey everyone.
Sorry it's been a while since anything new has happened on my profile (besides adding loads of favorites). I came back to California to finish school and we are coming onto our final week. As weird as it sounds, I'm sad it's over. You usually would never hear me say that but this school has been so amazing for me. They offer a second year where they go deeper in the studies (it's optional) and my heart is set on staying!
Returning back to school has helped so much in the grieving process. I'm away from home (and the house with all of my mom's stuff and memories lingering still). I'm surrounded by amazing people that love me and comfort me with whatever day or feeling I'm going through. It's so healing to have so many people come up and embrace you as you cry or just to listen to you talk about your memories of the one you love and miss.
I turned 23 three days ago and that was pretty weird. To me, 23 is a weird number. I wasn't looking forward to my birthday in all honesty. One, my mom wouldn't be a part of it and I didn't get to hear her voice, and two, I wanted so many things in my life accomplished by a certain age and none of them have come to pass. One of the biggest goals I've had was to get married. But I'm very grateful that I haven't been married yet because there was a lot I needed to learn about how to have healthy relationships so I'm glad. But I'm always waiting.......always.....hopefully not too much longer.
Anyway, as some of you have noticed, I've been finally posting some more of my artwork. I've been drawing a lot and I just scanned in a bunch of sketches but I need to edit them before posting them for all to see. I feel like I've been improving by watching others draw and watching tutorials which totally helps.
Since school is almost over and summer is near, you can bet that I'll be posting tons and drawing more! I'm super excited about that part.
Other than that, not too sure what else to say. I guess I could say "Always go for your dreams and never give up no matter what the circumstances say" because that's exactly what I'm doing! And we keep moving forward because that's all we can do at times.
Thanks for watching!
*Jess*
Sorry it's been a while since anything new has happened on my profile (besides adding loads of favorites). I came back to California to finish school and we are coming onto our final week. As weird as it sounds, I'm sad it's over. You usually would never hear me say that but this school has been so amazing for me. They offer a second year where they go deeper in the studies (it's optional) and my heart is set on staying!
Returning back to school has helped so much in the grieving process. I'm away from home (and the house with all of my mom's stuff and memories lingering still). I'm surrounded by amazing people that love me and comfort me with whatever day or feeling I'm going through. It's so healing to have so many people come up and embrace you as you cry or just to listen to you talk about your memories of the one you love and miss.
I turned 23 three days ago and that was pretty weird. To me, 23 is a weird number. I wasn't looking forward to my birthday in all honesty. One, my mom wouldn't be a part of it and I didn't get to hear her voice, and two, I wanted so many things in my life accomplished by a certain age and none of them have come to pass. One of the biggest goals I've had was to get married. But I'm very grateful that I haven't been married yet because there was a lot I needed to learn about how to have healthy relationships so I'm glad. But I'm always waiting.......always.....hopefully not too much longer.
Anyway, as some of you have noticed, I've been finally posting some more of my artwork. I've been drawing a lot and I just scanned in a bunch of sketches but I need to edit them before posting them for all to see. I feel like I've been improving by watching others draw and watching tutorials which totally helps.
Since school is almost over and summer is near, you can bet that I'll be posting tons and drawing more! I'm super excited about that part.
Other than that, not too sure what else to say. I guess I could say "Always go for your dreams and never give up no matter what the circumstances say" because that's exactly what I'm doing! And we keep moving forward because that's all we can do at times.
Thanks for watching!
*Jess*
The Greatest Heartache of All
As the title says, I'm now going through the greatest heartache I will ever feel. I quickly rushed back home to Minnesota on Feb 28 to be with my mom. She ended up having a surprise hemorrhagic stroke and she became brain dead instantly. We had her on life support for a bit but then decided to take her off of it to see her pass away about 20-30 minutes later. My family and I are working through the process of grieving and funeral arrangements. I've never experienced so much pain in my life. My mom was my best friend and I will miss her thoroughly forever.
I did say I was going to post some new artwork but since this has come up, it probably
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Hey everyone. So a lot has been happening lately. My car desperately needs repairs and I do not have the money to repair it because it failed the smog test.....grr. Thank you California!
So I'm beginning to feel a little anxious of this coming fall and what that will look like. I know God's going to take care of me like He promises but I can't help but feel......helpless. I'm in the process of looking for a job....(which is very difficult to check in on applications when you live 2 hours from the place you are trying to get a job at)...and looking for year-long housing so that I can attend the school of my dreams. It kinda doesn't help that
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